what is going on my mind

I never know when it all begin
All I know it started in random
Howsoever it is
The fairy tales should be end like one

It is not easy for always to be good in every single thing
I never say I could be perfect
And it wouldn't ever be
But I will say I will do my best
To promise you:
I'll never have any reason to leave you

Let me lay so close by you
Make me easy to hold on your hands when everything is going hard for you
Give me a chance to protect you
Keep you away and shield you from badness

I believe you could give me a love I always  dreaming of
from the first time we talked
For you to know, I got that
you can make me fall surely

My wish is being together
you and me
I want you so bad
I so fucking want you
And when you look at me
How do you see me?

It's okay if we doing something crazy and freak, but together
Lean on me when you get any burden
I'll be your best place to escape
Yes, I will

What the shit make you did not sure then?

How "it" Come That Way?

Arrrrggghhhhhh. . . This stuff makes me going insane more days! I don't even understand when it switched from "it doesn't exist" to "it exist". It grows just the way it is. Well, i would't take it any problem. But I can't easily accept this if he makes me falling in time and times again. It just ridiculous! How the hell it could be?! I know it properly that he is mine and almost no doubt about it. But it feels like I always adore him, yes I am. As yet, I often being very exited just seeing his picture, especially his picture I never saw before. Waiting for my cellphone ringing and there is him. Every little thing about him seems like the first time I met him. Am I going crazy??

going (in)sane


Yak! Dengan ini saya menyatakan bahwa foto-foto di atas adalah sebenar-benarnya merupakan foto saya yang saya ambil sendiri dengan penuh kesadaran (??)  :D

No Talkie-talkie Resolution

What a long. .long . .time since my last entry. And.....this is my first writing in 2010! yay!! Not too much late, cause I *maybe only my self  still feel that 2010 is just begin a couple days ago, unashamedly. [LOL]
To deal with a moment called "new year", I'm the one who dont have any specific resolution at all. Simply me, I just want to be someone who could control everything in my whole life, surely with intervention of The Infinite Power, God.
I thought it would be a great year, cause there are so many thing i must done immediately to reach any goal in my life. Yeeeeaahhhhhssss. . . . the goal I talk about isn't far from my study, carrier, and marriage! *marriage??sounds great!! :D
I don't need any high-sounding resolution without visible action, No! I believe in You, God. I know that You wouldn't leave me here, until present, without purpose or message You want me to bring. One thing I assured my self about You, You will always accompanying me even closer than my own vein, You are my all.